Landscape

He's seen me
at my worst,
knows me better
than any book,
hands-down
dragged me
head-first,
speechless when he
gives me that
look

We were always
leaving, 
catching each other
out the door,
never saw him
coming,
I crashed right
through the floor,
yes, no, and maybes,
and have I seen 
you here before

Images waiting on words
with nothing left
to say,
we were staring
at each other,
blank looks on
our face,
unreadable expressions,
we couldn't turn
away

A landscape of
us
when the words
won't come,
an infinity
when the limits
of love are
none.

Grief

Saying goodbye
has only broken
my heart about
a dozen times
so I started
saying goodnight

Let's do it again
turned into asking
for one more time,
begging for another
ride

He was teaching 
me how to fly,
I was learning
how to cry

I remember
waking up
and
taking off,
wondering if
I could have
ever held him
enough. 

Neon Lights

This is how 
an angel cries,
walking home
under neon lights,
on the corner,
a man screams
into his phone,
whatever it takes,
just bring her
home

Frost on 
all the windows,
shops closing up
for the night,
still a long way 
to go,
but she's not
going home
tonight

This is how
an angel cries,
walking home
under neon lights,
on the corner,
a girl in 
all the wrong clothes
screams into her phone,
please pick me up
and take me 
home

And it's 
a travelled road
if you've been here
before,
all the freedom
in the world
with no place
to go,
running until you
run out of 
road.

This is…

His face
between my hands,
asking for one more
dance,
hoping this night
won't end

Wandering through
a reverie,
absorbed by
the revelry,
lost in his eyes
again,
the room turns
as we spin

The park
at dusk,
his arm,
my touch,
the song
in my soul,
the way breathing
comes so natural

in solitude 
and peace,
my heart,
his sleeve,
dazed by 
the memories

Lamps lit
by one spark,
at home
before dark,
long drives
and small talk,
daylight fading
into night stars

Dandelion wishes
around bonfires,
kissing in the kitchen
and long-held desires,
the truth comes out
between my lips,
I am in love,
that's what
this is... 

Precipice

Staring into
a black abyss,
scared to fall,
still jumping in,
never thought
to dream of
this,
feel him move
when gravity 
shifts

He was the 
one exception,
standing on
a precipice,
every bone 
in my body
trying to 
hold back
the wind

Unraveling threads
from the web
I weaved,
walking along
the edge
on the Cliffs
of Insanity

Hiding behind
pretty words
with a face
that would
terrify the
world

Smothered the flames
of infatuation,
took the journey
before I had
a destination

Eviscerated 
every thought,
every memory
from my mind
suggesting
an alternate 
ending

Hanging off
the side 
of a precipice,
feel the rock
crumbling, 
slipping
right through
my fingertips. 

Refrain

Sleepy eyes looking
for yours in a crowded 
room,
making the most
out of what we've been
handed,
reaching for low hanging
fruit

back-to-back, then
in each other's faces,
but we're still standing,
your name right 
next to mine,
if the walls could talk
and the hills had eyes

hearts still still breaking,
cracking under the strain,
hearts worth saving
while we remain the same;
new towns, new places,
a familiar refrain:
when everything changes,
we remain the same.

Limitless

Everything has changed,
even though my hands
still shake,
remember it all
like it was yesterday

no ceiling to stop us,
flying limitless,
needing space to breathe
so we wouldn't suffocate,
memories washed away
with the rain

Explosive emotions
ready to detonate;
every second in heaven
a lifetime on Earth;
ordinary words leaving
scars where they burned
branded on my naked
soul

the games we played 
and the high we chased:
falling fast, falling hard,
falling too late

Quelling a desert thirst,
an endless search
to remain as this
when all we've ever known
was limitless.

Life Cycle

In the Woods

I took him down,
a sinking ship,
a crashing plane;
thought I had everything,
a Phoenix rising from 
the ashes in the flames

Made my bed,
I'll sleep in it,
ran with the wolves,
still feeding them,
Little Red Riding Hood
walking through the
woods alone,
curiosity takes you places
you should never go,
out here on my own

Can't make all I done wrong
make the punishment fit the crime,
thought I did my time,
used to wake up screaming
his name in the middle
of the night

Every day the same,
every day I die,
would have come back 
swinging every time,
but I'm losing the fight

Can't get over what
you don't understand,
can't miss what you 
never had; out in the open,
nowhere to go,
in plain sight,
no place to call home.

Split

He made a heart 
that could break,
gave me something to protect
that wasn't mine to take;
it's a cruel joke
living in a man's world,
two minds living
in a body I call
my own

Tell me what to do
with this body of mine,
punishment for the way
I write,
two sides living
a split life
nowhere to turn;
it's raining fire and brimstone
on the city tonight,
a comedy threatening
to collapse into tragedy
at any time.

Love Letters

The breeze still stings
where you kissed my cheek,
the ground is still warm
where you buried me

Our talks grew shorter
the more we had to say,
promises for tomorrow
fading into yesterdays

I wrote a dozen suicide notes
masquerading as love letters,
stripped down to the bones
pretending I was getting better

Until I slipped through the cracks,
past the point of no return,
without a way back;
nothing remains to burn

Committed my heart to paper,
scrawls becoming scars across the page,
the sun never coming out until later,
promises for a new day

Lonely hearts in jars,
dreams dashed out on the floor,
too far from home to know
who I am anymore

The language of love letters
tied to a death sentence,
words strung together
with casual indifference

a world too blind to see
what holds me together
ties you to me,
the way you would 
watch me fall asleep
until the only word 
I can cry is: safety,
please

The only place where
I lay my head at night
with secrets too deep to confide,
the world too big,
the lights too bright
for someone like me to hide

Limping home after kicking too hard,
broken bones after falling too far,
pure black fading into the perfect hue,
every inch of my body colored
in the deepest shade of indigo blue

Love letters embedded in fine ink
on my skin of lessons learned
and the life I've lived, 
a whole galaxy 
within a single 
fingerprint.

Noir

Reeled me in
with his movie-
star good looks,
turned my life
black and white
overnight,
a silent film
noir

Tones me down,
removes the color,
takes my breath away,
holds me down,
mutes the sound,
gets me through
the day

A remedy for the impurity
stuck within my soul;
plagued by a world too loud,
he shuts the voices out
when I don't which
way to go.

Riptide

The memories come in so fast
crashing in on me, 
replaying back,
pulling me in with the riptide,
a pirate flag waves in the wind,
there's treachery on the sea

It's a crowded room
with people I've never seen,
objects in motion waiting
for time to freeze;
couple's dance, faces pass,
we're sneaking out the back

He's a renaissance man
with the Midas touch,
everything turns to gold
in his hand; I'm trying
to be the flame, 
not the moth, but 
he's all bite and
no bark

He's driving slow
taking me home,
one hand on my knee,
walks me up to the door,
I'm standing on tiptoe
to kiss him in the dark,
heels have never been
my thing; he's a gentleman
with ideas from another
century, left me standing
there in my skin-tight
jeans

Showed his true face
from the first day; 
it's a new age, 
things will never be the same;
made me a believer,
taught me a language I 
couldn't speak, tore
right through me like
the holes in my jeans

Leaves the room
just to see if I'll follow,
and you know I will; 
waits for me to catch him 
just to tell me to 
hold still...

and you know I will

I'm paying the price
for every woman alive
who killed a man
they couldn't revive,
Ophelia floating on
the riptide

He'll hold me under
until I'm begging
on my knees to hear
those precious words:
you'll never find someone like me

and you know I won't;
I used to wear the crown,
but now I'm the goat

Sharks in the water,
all out for blood, but
he's the only one; I'll
drown before I let 
anyone else take me home

He'll take his time
with the slow burn
until I lose my mind
or get pulled under
with the riptide.