Gliding through a field of ice, hands too frozen to climb, a beautiful mess of a shipwreck, diving through confusion to the parts that still make sense, all the pieces spell out your name, but what I wouldn't give to see your face The reflection in the water enough to pull me under, wound around you tighter than a spring, the only life line keeping me from floating out to sea It gets harder to remember what I've already memorized, gave them a smile, but saved you my eyes, digging through the debris to find what's left of me because I get lost in your look, now you're all I can see Too deeply involved to ever get out, but the ocean deadens sound If I go down, then we go down together, because I remember what you said when the horns were blowing, push through the storm, until it gets better, and then keep going.
Saying goodbye has only broken my heart about a dozen times so I started saying goodnight Let's do it again turned into asking for one more time, begging for another ride He was teaching me how to fly, I was learning how to cry I remember waking up and taking off, wondering if I could have ever held him enough.
This is how an angel cries, walking home under neon lights, on the corner, a man screams into his phone, whatever it takes, just bring her home Frost on all the windows, shops closing up for the night, still a long way to go, but she's not going home tonight This is how an angel cries, walking home under neon lights, on the corner, a girl in all the wrong clothes screams into her phone, please pick me up and take me home And it's a travelled road if you've been here before, all the freedom in the world with no place to go, running until you run out of road.
His face between my hands, asking for one more dance, hoping this night won't end Wandering through a reverie, absorbed by the revelry, lost in his eyes again, the room turns as we spin The park at dusk, his arm, my touch, the song in my soul, the way breathing comes so natural in solitude and peace, my heart, his sleeve, dazed by the memories Lamps lit by one spark, at home before dark, long drives and small talk, daylight fading into night stars Dandelion wishes around bonfires, kissing in the kitchen and long-held desires, the truth comes out between my lips, I am in love, that's what this is...
In the Woods
I took him down, a sinking ship, a crashing plane; thought I had everything, a Phoenix rising from the ashes in the flames Made my bed, I'll sleep in it, ran with the wolves, still feeding them, Little Red Riding Hood walking through the woods alone, curiosity takes you places you should never go, out here on my own Can't make all I done wrong make the punishment fit the crime, thought I did my time, used to wake up screaming his name in the middle of the night Every day the same, every day I die, would have come back swinging every time, but I'm losing the fight Can't get over what you don't understand, can't miss what you never had; out in the open, nowhere to go, in plain sight, no place to call home.
He made a heart that could break, gave me something to protect that wasn't mine to take; it's a cruel joke living in a man's world, two minds living in a body I call my own Tell me what to do with this body of mine, punishment for the way I write, two sides living a split life no where to turn; it's raining fire and brimstone on the city tonight, a comedy threatening to collapse into tragedy at any time.
The breeze still stings where you kissed my cheek, the ground is still warm where you buried me Our talks grew shorter the more we had to say, promises for tomorrow fading into yesterdays I wrote a dozen suicide notes masquerading as love letters, stripped down to the bones pretending I was getting better Until I slipped through the cracks, past the point of no return, without a way back; nothing remains to burn Committed my heart to paper, scrawls becoming scars across the page, the sun never coming out until later, promises for a new day Lonely hearts in jars, dreams dashed out on the floor, too far from home to know who I am anymore The language of love letters tied to a death sentence, words strung together with casual indifference a world too blind to see what holds me together ties you to me, the way you would watch me fall asleep until the only word I can cry is: safety, please The only place where I lay my head at night with secrets too deep to confide, the world too big, the lights too bright for someone like me to hide Limping home after kicking too hard, broken bones after falling too far, pure black fading into the perfect hue, every inch of my body colored in the deepest shade of indigo blue Love letters embedded in fine ink on my skin of lessons learned and the life I've lived, a whole galaxy within a single fingerprint.
Standing right behind me, whispering in my ear, long black hair falling over her shoulder, telling me everything I wanted to hear; she was everything I wanted to be, she was perfect, all bones, no claws, the sweetest voice I ever heard, walked next to me down the halls, met me in the bathroom after lunch, always kept her word; all the other girls only knew that when they asked, I already had something to do She knew everything I was hiding, red lines between a gap in my thighs, her dark eyes looked a lot like mine, took everything I threw at her without complaint, sneaking in my room every night when the numbers kept me awake, we counted together, up and down both sides, her hands, my ribs, her fingers, my wrist Counted through every set, every rep all night in my bed until the only color left we could see was red; gone in the morning, but she always stayed, she stays,she's my best friend.