The Disease Known as Love

You are a fever
running through
my blood,
not by choice,
not my will,
fighting infection,
yet still lethal
enough to kill

You are a virus
spreading throughout
my entire body,
unstoppable,
incurable,
unable to be controlled,
leaving no part of me untouched,
infecting my soul

You are dangerous
in close contact,
a wild strain,
and new,
six feet apart
isn’t far enough
away to protect
me from you

You are the disease
known as Love,
and I the patient,
stuck together
forever and always
in isolation,
until the day
you kill me.

What I Love

The silhouette of your hand
over these pages,
traces of your
ink-stained fingerprints
time won’t fade,
the impression you
left behind,
every word I write,
erasing every trace
of what I don’t say;
what I have loved
I love forever,
what I love
stays.

Reinvented

I’m stuck in this one-room house,
not a sound, silence too loud,
haunted by thoughts of you,
dead again
before coming back to life

Carrie at the dance,
blood on her dress,
the crown slipping
through my hands,
your laugh

Who will I be now?
Waking up brand new
Sometimes love doesn’t work out
no matter how many walls
you break down,
there’s always another
door to break in,
another puzzle piece
to fit,
pulling myself back on my feet,
a body reinvented,
who will I be
when I don’t really
want to be me

I’ve been here before
I don’t want to be here anymore,
a new me I haven’t met yet,
a body reinvented,
who will I be
when there’s nothing
left of me.

A Million Little Kisses

In and out breathing,
back-and-forth screaming,
lying about our feelings,
you say that you’re leaving,
then tell me to go,
the heat of the moment
turning into a soft amber glow

Until we’re under the blankets
with a million little kisses,
it’s slowly sinking in,
sorry won’t fix this,
licking old wounds
needing a million little stitches,
hands above my head,
dropping the fight,
making up in bed
with a million little kisses
instead

We play games of make-believe,
I pack up and pretend to leave,
you say it’s not you, it’s me
We can never let it be,
always deciding to let it go,
the heat of the moment
turning into a soft amber glow

Until we’re under the blankets
with a million little kisses,
it’s slowly sinking in,
sorry won’t fix this,
licking old wounds
needing a million little stitches,
hands above my head,
dropping the fight,
making up in bed
with a million little kisses
instead

We stay up half the night,
something always leads to a fight,
we will never get this right,
someone always wants to be
the first to go,
the heat of the moment
turning into a soft amber glow

Until we’re under the blankets
with a million little kisses,
and we’re both naked,
it’s slowly sinking in,
sorry won’t fix this,
only a million little kisses.

Proof

A picture every day
to remind me
of the way
I felt about you,
my brown-eyed gaze
holding every last bit
of proof

Not knowing what was
coming next,
what we were in for,
the early days of innocence,
opening every new door

Up with the sunrise,
coffee in a mug,
always ready for
a new surprise,
whatever came up,
nothing except the
two of us

A summer of madness,
blue skies above,
a feeling I won’t forget,
falling in love

The pictures haunt me, too
the eyes I had for you,
my brown-eyed gaze
holding every last bit
of proof

Amen

They said
there goes the strongest woman
this town has ever seen,
she could take on the world,
she can handle anything
No one knew
I prayed every night
just to make it through
one more day, one more week,
Dear Lord, just let me sleep
I wish I’d never seen
the plans you had for me,
want to lay down my knife,
said I’d lay down my life,
now I just want to die,
have someone else in
my corner this time,
chained to my pen
with a broken heart
that won’t mend,
time won’t erase
all the places I’ve been
and I just want to go
home to you tonight,

Amen.

Inside Out

You shined a blacklight on me
found the corners of my soul,
saw the mess I tried to clean,
but the scars still show,
uncomfortable in my own ski,
tried playing the part
without ever fitting in

I’m tired of this town
listening to my name come out
of everyone’s mouth,
building me up just to tear me down
I just want to hide,
come running to your side,
always taking on my fights,
never once did you complain,
taking all the shit I gave

I wanted to be the first to say
you changed my life in every way
always coming in for the save
you flipped my world upside down,
turned me inside out,
and I’ll never be the same.

Harmony

The night I stole your book
and never gave it back,
you kept my shirt,
and I’ll never forget that,
taking pictures all night,
in your arms until sunrise

I said
I’m not trying to get inside your head,
I want the best you have to give,
your brown eyes on my face,
clothes dropping to the floor,
a look I can’t erase,
somewhere we’ve never been before,
tangled in the sheets all in your bed
all the things I never said,
a side of me you’ve never seen,
just one kiss leading to more

I might never see you again,
but I’ll never forget the
music that we made,
a love like yours
and a love like mine,
making love together in harmony
for the first time.