Sleepy eyes looking for yours in a crowded room, making the most out of what we've been handed, reaching for low hanging fruit back-to-back, then in each other's faces, but we're still standing, your name right next to mine, if the walls could talk and the hills had eyes hearts still still breaking, cracking under the strain, hearts worth saving while we remain the same; new towns, new places, a familiar refrain: when everything changes, we remain the same.
Everything has changed, even though my hands still shake, remember it all like it was yesterday no ceiling to stop us, flying limitless, needing space to breathe so we wouldn't suffocate, memories washed away with the rain Explosive emotions ready to detonate; every second in heaven a lifetime on Earth; ordinary words leaving scars where they burned branded on my naked soul the games we played and the high we chased: falling fast, falling hard, falling too late Quelling a desert thirst, an endless search to remain as this when all we've ever known was limitless.
In the Woods
I took him down, a sinking ship, a crashing plane; thought I had everything, a Phoenix rising from the ashes in the flames Made my bed, I'll sleep in it, ran with the wolves, still feeding them, Little Red Riding Hood walking through the woods alone, curiosity takes you places you should never go, out here on my own Can't make all I done wrong make the punishment fit the crime, thought I did my time, used to wake up screaming his name in the middle of the night Every day the same, every day I die, would have come back swinging every time, but I'm losing the fight Can't get over what you don't understand, can't miss what you never had; out in the open, nowhere to go, in plain sight, no place to call home.
He made a heart that could break, gave me something to protect that wasn't mine to take; it's a cruel joke living in a man's world, two minds living in a body I call my own Tell me what to do with this body of mine, punishment for the way I write, two sides living a split life no where to turn; it's raining fire and brimstone on the city tonight, a comedy threatening to collapse into tragedy at any time.
The breeze still stings where you kissed my cheek, the ground is still warm where you buried me Our talks grew shorter the more we had to say, promises for tomorrow fading into yesterdays I wrote a dozen suicide notes masquerading as love letters, stripped down to the bones pretending I was getting better Until I slipped through the cracks, past the point of no return, without a way back; nothing remains to burn Committed my heart to paper, scrawls becoming scars across the page, the sun never coming out until later, promises for a new day Lonely hearts in jars, dreams dashed out on the floor, too far from home to know who I am anymore The language of love letters tied to a death sentence, words strung together with casual indifference a world too blind to see what holds me together ties you to me, the way you would watch me fall asleep until the only word I can cry is: safety, please The only place where I lay my head at night with secrets too deep to confide, the world too big, the lights too bright for someone like me to hide Limping home after kicking too hard, broken bones after falling too far, pure black fading into the perfect hue, every inch of my body colored in the deepest shade of indigo blue Love letters embedded in fine ink on my skin of lessons learned and the life I've lived, a whole galaxy within a single fingerprint.
Reeled me in with his movie- star good looks, turned my life black and white overnight, a silent film noir Tones me down, removes the color, takes my breath away, holds me down, mutes the sound, gets me through the day A remedy for the impurity stuck within my soul; plagued by a world too loud, he shuts the voices out when I don't which way to go.
The memories come in so fast crashing in on me, replaying back, pulling me in with the riptide, a pirate flag waves in the wind, there's treachery on the sea It's a crowded room with people I've never seen, objects in motion waiting for time to freeze; couple's dance, faces pass, we're sneaking out the back He's a renaissance man with the Midas touch, everything turns to gold in his hand; I'm trying to be the flame, not the moth, but he's all bite and no bark He's driving slow taking me home, one hand on my knee, walks me up to the door, I'm standing on tiptoe to kiss him in the dark, heels have never been my thing; he's a gentleman with ideas from another century, left me standing there in my skin-tight jeans Showed his true face from the first day; it's a new age, things will never be the same; made me a believer, taught me a language I couldn't speak, tore right through me like the holes in my jeans Leaves the room just to see if I'll follow, and you know I will; waits for me to catch him just to tell me to hold still... and you know I will I'm paying the price for every woman alive who killed a man they couldn't revive, Ophelia floating on the riptide He'll hold me under until I'm begging on my knees to hear those precious words: you'll never find someone like me and you know I won't; I used to wear the crown, but now I'm the goat Sharks in the water, all out for blood, but he's the only one; I'll drown before I let anyone else take me home He'll take his time with the slow burn until I lose my mind or get pulled under with the riptide.
Moving through mountains of conviction, heaven's mission needed persistence; with the face of an angel, how could I resist him? Fire in my veins, a flaming arrow falling down from the sky, the spark in my soul ignited by the glint in his eye He looked so pretty like a devil in blue, his smile could Rome, when I first saw him standing there, knew I had to get him home Want him in all the wrong ways, waiting for the right time and place, when he tells me he wants to go someplace we've never been before Pinned him that night when he gave me the look, now his hands are on my side, he kisses by the book, fingers moving to my spine, arms above my head I think I pinned him right 'cause he's just my type; quiets the world until I forget it exists; nothing else matters when we're together like this.
He's the beginning of every page, the opening curtain, grand master on the world's stage We all play, all eyes on him; born in sin, a blank slate, Mona Lisa's smile like a child, no denial written on her face Balancing on a tightrope, in the hall passing love notes starry-eyed, love-crossed walking down the boardwalk, hand-in-hand, me and you; an inception inspired, sparks flying out of a live wire, the start of something new.
Close enough to almost touch, too many sleepless nights in the forest after dark gazing up at the sky through a space in the trees, a canopy, shading in the lines where my scars are written in the stars Drowning in a pool of tears, found a place, my fears can't touch me here.
Going to build a castle on all the ruins they left me in, a new religion for everything I stand against Sadistic worship paying more than lip service, I'll take the pleasure with my pain True love is exceptional, two or three times a century, they say, free falling through the stratosphere, elements colliding in my headspace, the catalyst a driving force, a Titan, a godsend falling from heaven with a message: He amuses her, she is in love, he is pure and she is sure this is nature's invention Inspiration takes a toll, every pearl starts out as a grain of sand on the shore, an exacting price for your soul; nothing in the world is worth more.
Standing right behind me, whispering in my ear, long black hair falling over her shoulder, telling me everything I wanted to hear; she was everything I wanted to be, she was perfect, all bones, no claws, the sweetest voice I ever heard, walked next to me down the halls, met me in the bathroom after lunch, always kept her word; all the other girls only knew that when they asked, I already had something to do She knew everything I was hiding, red lines between a gap in my thighs, her dark eyes looked a lot like mine, took everything I threw at her without complaint, sneaking in my room every night when the numbers kept me awake, we counted together, up and down both sides, her hands, my ribs, her fingers, my wrist Counted through every set, every rep all night in my bed until the only color left we could see was red; gone in the morning, but she always stayed, she stays,she's my best friend.